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Precious MemoriesBy Dafa practitioner Hui Lian from China I was very touched when I read a practitioner's article "Following Teacher for Thousands of Miles around China." It reminded me of my experience of following Master to Chengdu City, Sichuan Province and attending Master's lectures in person many times. I had experiences similar to the author, and have seen all kinds of difficulties during Dafa's ten years spreading in the world. I am not highly educated, but I was in a unique position to see how hard it was for Master to spread the Fa in the beginning. I want to try my best to write about it to share with my fellow practitioners, expose the lies, and to validate Dafa. This is also a process for me to break through the old notions that block my progress in cultivation.
I had left my home and gone from place to place because of the evil's persecution. Shortly before last New Year's Eve, I could not find a place to live. I was thinking that the Dafa of the universe is being persecuted, Master is being slandered, Chinese people's minds are poisoned, and that practitioners who are forced to leave home cannot even find a place to stay! I felt very sad and missed Master very much. I went to the streets that Master had walked and came to the Fangze Garden in Ditan Park. I sat on a rock for a long time and recollected scenes from the Fa conference held there in December 1996. The memory was very vivid in my mind. We had the Fa conference in the morning and group sharing in the afternoon. After group exercises, we had dinner together in two main halls. Master came in to join us. Seeing Master, everyone stood up immediately, some applauded and some did heshi. We were all showing our respect to Master. Master smiled and walked around. He did not stop, just kept waving to us, "Everyone sit down. Keep eating. Enjoy your meal. I will come back to see you in a little while." Later I heard that Master had just come back from the U.S. He rushed to the meeting place as soon as He got off the plane and had not had dinner yet. After dinner Master came back and lectured for over forty minutes. Remembering Master's voice and smiles, I felt fortunate and couldn't stop crying. Suddenly I no longer felt that I was suffering. After thinking about Master putting all of His energy toward saving people, I thought that we should do our best so that our behavior today would be worthy of Master, and worthy of Dafa! Memory II In the summer of 2001, someone betrayed me and led seven or eight police officers in two police vehicles, and people from the 610 Office to arrest me. It happened that I wasn't home at the time, so they did not find me. They used every possible forcible and manipulative way on my family members, who are not practitioners. My family was deceived and started to work with them. At that time I hadn't realized that there existed a problem within my own space. The family members came to my place and tried to force me to go to a brainwashing class. I sternly told them, "The Fa is deeply rooted in my heart. I am determined to take this path, and no one should think about swaying me." I kept eliminating the evil factors behind them and got rid of their thoughts of calling the police that night. They agreed to let me sleep for a few hours, and would send me out in the morning. I heard them murmuring that they would call the police vehicle to come pick me up in the morning. At around 2 o'clock in the morning I thought, "I shall not follow the evil at all. I must take every step correctly. I am a Dafa particle." I then kept sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil factors in other dimensions that controlled them, and asked that the gate not be locked (every night at midnight, the gate is closed, and then re-opened at 6:00 a.m.). I should not be led by my emotions, and must leave before dawn. The lock opened with a light twist, and I broke the "blockade" easily with my strong, righteous thoughts. It was raining that day. I walked around for the entire day and still had not found a place to stay after 10 o'clock in the evening. Standing on the overpass I was tired, thirsty, hungry and cold. Our old practice site was just underneath the overpass. Past events appeared in front of my eyes one by one. I had seen our Master lecture in person in the early days, and He had personally taught me the exercises. Dafa is great. Master is great. Soon, our one practice site had increased to over a dozen. We studied the Fa and exercised together, and shared our experiences. It was such a pure land. Now, I have lost contact with the practitioners because of the persecution. As I thought about the past and the present, I felt like crying but had no tears. How do I validate the Fa now? Suddenly, I realized that my thinking was flawed. I cleared my mind, adjusted my state of mind and asked myself calmly, "What is my responsibility?" I saw the scene of Master's meeting with assistants and giving a lecture in January 1995. After I adjusted my state of mind, I rationally analyzed the situation. Currently, the evil forces are taking advantage of our human thinking. On the one hand, they separate us and try to destroy us. On the other hand, they try to use the illusion of the evil being rampant to wear out disciples' wills. Looking inside, I feel that this can be attributed to our not having studied the Fa well as one body. Nothing is accidental. I am responsible for it. I have not done well in my cultivation. Master taught us, "Guiding a group of cultivators well accumulates boundless merit and virtue. But if you don't guide people well, I'd say that you haven't fulfilled your duty." (Explaining the Content of Falun Dafa) Indeed I have not fulfilled my duty, and have brought so much loss to Dafa. Master! I feel ashamed before Dafa and You. At this moment, I no longer felt lost. I told myself that I should become worthy of Master's expectations. I must take each step of my Fa-rectification correctly, be responsible to people and to the universal Dafa. I set a motto for myself, "One Master, one Fa. Firmly believe, be steadfast, firmly cultivate and complete the path all the way." I can defeat all tribulations. Besides eliminating the evils that persecute me, I told myself that I should not be perturbed for not finding a place to live. Nothing can destroy me. As the saying goes, "Heaven is the cover, the earth is the bed, the sprinkling rain is the sweet dew." Nobody is as free as I am. Later that night, miraculously, I found a temporary place to rest. Then I found a place to stay the next day, and started my new journey of Fa-rectification. Memory III Remembering the second half of 2001, practitioners had a lot of difficulties finding each other, and there were only a few truth-clarifying materials available due to the evil's persecution. Practitioners were not able to read Teacher's new articles when they were published and they were unable to hold any large experience sharing events. Under all of the pressures, I came to clearly understand the responsibility of each Dafa disciple for saving sentient beings, and I did not wait or depend on anyone's help. I started to use all possible ways to re-establish contact with the veteran practitioners I previously knew, and to re-form a new practitioners' group in my local area. For those practitioners who were misled by the evil propaganda, I never gave up hope for them under any circumstances, and offered them encouragement. Teacher would not leave any true practitioners behind, and this reminded me of something that happened back in the beginning of 1994. One veteran practitioner told me that in the early days of the lecture series in China, every student would fill out a survey about their health conditions, and Teacher would read them over one by one. The number of students was increasing tremendously at that time. They were coming from all over China. Sometimes Teacher's seminar helpers would wake up early in the morning to find him still reading through the surveys one by one. After each lecture, Teacher always asked every student to write up their experiences so that He could read them. There were so many students. Who could imagine just how many papers Teacher read through every day? Some of the students who helped Teacher run the seminars used to say, "I do not know when Teacher sleeps. Usually at dawn, Teacher is still concentrating on reading through the experience sharing papers." Whenever I saw Teacher back then, He had students' experience sharing papers with him wherever he went and would read them whenever He had free time. He was truly responsible to each and every one of His students! Sometimes I saw that some of the students' reports were very messy and difficult to read, and I really felt sorry for Teacher having to try and read them all. Even in everyday life, reports handed in to our teachers and supervisors need to be neat and orderly. Many practitioners, even to this day, may not truly realize just how difficult it was for Teacher to look after all of His students back then, but He never gave up hope in any one of them despite this. Our Teacher will not give up on a single pre-destined relationship and this demonstrates how great, kind and compassionate He is. All of this is like what Teacher said in "Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)" (Essentials for Further Advancement II), "The truth is, I treasure you more than you treasure yourselves!" Teacher has indeed borne a tremendous amount for His disciples and all sentient beings! In this light, I realized that it is every practitioner's responsibility to help and encourage each other in the Fa-rectification period, and to never give up hope in those practitioners who have been misled by the evil's propaganda. After realizing this, I began to contact more practitioners, and together as a group we started sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil beings that persecutes Dafa and Dafa practitioners and lead practitioners astray. I sent forth righteous thoughts for all practitioners who previously practiced Dafa but gave up. I told them that this kind of opportunity is very hard to come by and that they should not fall behind in the Fa-rectification period. Memory IV I did not step out to validate Dafa and expose the evil in the beginning stages of the persecution. At that time, I did not know what to do, and stayed home to study the Fa all day long, thinking that I was on the right track. But starting in the year 2000, when Teacher published new articles beginning with "The Knowing Heart," I awakened to my responsibility to step forward and validate Dafa and expose the evil. In "Rationality" (Essentials for Further Advancement II), Teacher says, "You must let the world's people know about their evilness--this is saving people, as well." When I decided to step forward, I couldn't find any truth clarifying materials, and I thought that if I could only get a copy of some truth clarifying materials I would know what to do next. So I decided not to wait and immediately took action to make some materials myself. After starting to step forward to validate Dafa, I studied the Fa again and felt that Teacher had been very clear about the need to step forward. Why was I unable to realize this earlier? After looking inside myself I found the reason: my attachments to selfishness and fear, and my stubborn mentality of always thinking that I am right, combined with an irresponsible attitude and an unrighteous heart. Around National Day in 2000, I could not wait any longer and held up a banner that read, "The Fa Rectifies the Cosmos" at Tiananmen Square along with several other practitioners. I still remember vividly what happened on Tiananmen Square that day. There were around one hundred practitioners who had come to the center of the square, and I was among them. Plainclothes and uniformed police and police cars were everywhere looking for Falun Dafa practitioners. My mind was very righteous and I did not have any fear in my heart when I unfolded the banner reading, "The Fa Rectifies the Cosmos." When the police and their cars came over to grab me, I looked at them and said, "What are you doing?" As soon as I said this they looked like they had gotten an electric shock and released their hands from me and stepped back simultaneously. I experienced the magnificent and mighty power of "one righteous mind can subdue one hundred evils." (Zhuan Falun) I returned home safely that same day, and immediately went out to distribute more truth clarifying materials to validate the Fa and walk my new path of Fa-rectification. Memory V Every day since July 20, 1999, has seemed like a year. From longing for an end to the persecution to validating the Fa openly and nobly, we have gradually become more and more mature during this period. The rumors and defamation against Dafa on TV made me more clear and firm in my belief in Dafa. I remember a time when the director and secretary of the neighborhood committee came to my home to try to force me to give up cultivation. I pointed to the TV and told them, "I watch the news on television every day. What is said is completely different from what I have experienced. Practitioners are the ones reading Zhuan Falun every day and who are the most knowledgeable about what is written in that book. We are practicing Falun Gong and cultivating our xinxing each day. We are also the ones who are most clear about what we do every day. For example, I eat a pear every day. Who should describe how a pear tastes, me, or someone who has never eaten a pear? How could I believe and follow you?" They immediately became speechless. I then sternly told them, but with a peaceful attitude, that if they wanted to ask me what Falun Dafa and cultivation were like, they were welcome to do so anytime. However, if they wanted to speak to me about other things, then they should not waste their time. Ever since then, they have not returned. Whenever I saw the rumors and defamation against Master Li on television, I could not stop my tears. With the Fa spreading in the human world, I had witnessed the tribulations that Dafa had experienced and the hardships Master faced while spreading the Fa. How could the vicious rumors not deeply hurt a Dafa disciple's heart? I remembered attending the International Health Show of 1992, which was held in the International Trade Building. When I entered the hall, various forms of qigong dazzled the eyes. I saw that the waiting line for Falun Gong was the longest and had the most people, so I hurried to the front to have a look. Enormous excitement rose from my heart. At first glance, I saw a young man with a tall stature and a kind face speaking to a journalist. At that moment, I told the friend I was with, "He must be the Master of this qigong." "How do you know that?" she asked me. "I have a feeling." I replied. It was very strange, and as I stared at Master Li I felt that I had seen this person somewhere before, or we had done something together, but I could not remember, no matter how hard I tried. He really looked familiar! I looked at Him carefully, from head to toe. He was wearing an ordinary coat, with an old, light brown sweater inside (which looked hand-woven, but later I found out that the sweater was mended). His pants and shoes were also old, but very clean. He seemed very approachable. Memory VI I remember when I attended the lecture in Tianjin, I noticed Master always stayed at an inexpensive hotel. He was always busy. After the lecture, Master often had a lot of things to take care of. When he returned to the hotel, it was usually around 9:00 or 10:00 p.m., and each night Master ate only instant noodles for dinner. I also noticed (I naturally noticed this because I attended many lectures) that Master seldom changed his clothing, but paid attention to appearance and dressed very simply. Except for changes in the weather, Master dressed in the same clothes. Once, I asked one of the practitioners who knew Master about this, and I learned that Master washed His clothes every night, and wore them again the next day. I observed that Master seldom bought new clothes, for He had very few articles of clothing. When Master gave lectures in Tianjin, His old shoes, which had been worn for years, were worn out. However, He didn't want to replace them with a new pair. Several disciples strongly insisted on accompanying Master to the department store, and bought a new pair of shoes for Him to wear. Whenever several of our veteran practitioners gathered together, we couldn't help mentioning Master. One time we talked about the Tianjin lecture. I complained about the practitioners who worked with Master. Why didn't they take good care of Master rather than let Him eat instant noodles every day? However, one practitioner told me that this happened not only in Tianjin. Master Li often ate instant noodles. She also mentioned that when Master came to the public to spread the Fa in the very beginning, it was very difficult. The funds collected during the lecture sometimes were not enough to pay the rent of the lecture hall (the rent was fixed regardless of how many people attended the lecture). The budget was very tight. She also told me, "Master never told us how high His level was. I only saw Master as a teacher and a good example, benevolent and peaceful. I felt Master was not an ordinary qigong master. In my heart, I knew that Master Li was so much more than that. When Master hosted lectures in my hometown, I invited him over again and again to have a meal in my home (Master stayed far away from the lecture hall, which took several hours to commute). Master didn't like to eat meat. Vegetarian food was enough. While cooking and asking Master Li what He would like to have, Master always said, ‘I will eat whatever everyone else eats. Don't go to a lot of trouble, keep it simple.’ Once Master humorously said, ‘I like the Shandong steamed bread you make.’ As He said this, He bit into the hot steamed bread and said that it tasted good. Actually, Master was always thinking of the disciples. He didn't want to bother anyone, and He didn't want us to spend money." She also told me that one time after lunch, there was some leftover food in a dish, as well as some vegetable soup. That evening when they returned from the lecture, she said to Master, "It is very easy to cook a vegetarian dish." However, Master said, "I'll just eat the leftovers." She tried to tell Teacher that they usually did not eat so simply. She thought, "How could we let Master eat leftover vegetable soup?" However, Master's expression was serious and pointed to the leftovers (the remaining vegetable soup) and said, "I'll just eat the leftovers." Master's mood was very firm, which at that moment, seemed like an order that no one could contradict. Master Li poured the vegetable soup into his bowl, along with some other food and calmly ate. When we heard about this, everyone felt very remorseful. My eyes were wet with tears. Master, You suffered! Your disciples could not express their respect even with thousands and thousands of words. Your every word or deed was so moving. I felt that if I didn't do well myself, I would really be unworthy of Master's instruction and teaching.
Chinese Central Television and the 610 Office spread the rumor that Teacher was not capable of writing Zhuan Falun, and that the book was actually written by someone else. When I heard that CCTV would go so far as to spread such lies, I really felt that the Chinese Government was losing face. I am a witness! I was honored to have been able to participate in transcribing the lectures recorded in the initial stages. Zhuan Falun was transcribed word by word from Master's lectures in Changchun, Jinan, Zhengzhou, Dalian, etc., which took us five or six days to finish. In the summer of 1994, I accepted this sacred task and did not slack off one bit. Due to the fact that my level of education was not high, I did not know how to write many of the characters in Master's lectures. Even so, I checked the dictionary while playing the lectures sentence by sentence. Then I transcribed them word for word with a tape recorder in the absence of any better transcribing equipment. Next, I copied them into characters without missing a single word. Working day and night for dozens of hours, over ten practitioners finally finished the transcribing task on time. The transcript was later sent to other practitioners to type up, and then it was handed to Master for corrections. I knew the importance of this task. Recalling how I knelt on the floor and bent over the sofa to do this because my family was sleeping and I had to work on the sofa in the hall, and then seeing all the shameless lies on TV, I feel I must write about what I experienced. I have never written an article before. However, as a Dafa disciple, I strongly feel that it is my duty to record the glory of Master and Dafa, to help more people learn the truth, and to expose the deceitful lies. If I had no deep impressions left by Master's teachings or the example He set, my righteous thoughts might not be so strong. I suggest that more veteran disciples write about their personal experiences and let Master's true greatness be made public, so that our fellow practitioners can become more diligent, and the people of the world more clear.
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